A Reflective Flow in Honour of Winter Solstice

The silence and stillness of early morning enchanting in all its glory in the winter air. The crisp snow, beneath my feet, crunching as I stride forward, letting the piercing wind kiss my skin. Allowing my mind to drift, the calmness of the rising sun, melting beautiful space within my mind, a clear head, a love for that peculiar moment. An acceptance of this state within my own journey. Feeling a pulsating creative energy move through my body, teasing my mind, lighting up my heart.

As the end of another calendar year creeps closer. Reflecting on magical adventures, past love and heartache, the lows and the highs, the tides and the floods. The lessons learned, the intuition followed, the passions that guided me, the prayers that kept me safe. The shifts in my thinking, the impacts and ripples sent out through intentional love. It’s amazing how much you can actually experience within 365 days. It’s amazing to discover and uncover the truth of manifestation and law of attraction. To discover that magic and power within you. To feel that universe residing within deep on a soul level, to look around and realize the connectedness of it all, the aliveness of it all, the magic within it all.

Growing up, I’ve always strived with one mission; to help people. I was always occupied on helping the other like mothering my baby brother, nursing injured butterflies, gifting beautiful humans with things even if I didn’t have much myself. It’s been a great year, as I began to shift my awareness to also creating that space to help myself. To truly embrace an impactful adventure of self-love and self-compassion. To truly accept and become aware of the negative self-sabotage, the negative self-image or patterns of covering my emotions. I learned how to breathe, I learned how to not be ashamed of my tears but to celebrate them, I learned how to move my body in ways that distinguished negativity and instead invited positivity in. I learned how to look myself in the eyes with pure love, I learned how to feel my own energy and move it toward my visions. I learned how to say no, I learned how to master manifestation. I learned how to dance with my demons.

Now, that’s not to say that that I’m perfect. In fact, I’m very imperfectly perfect. There were days that I felt so low, that I wanted to give up on all my ambitions and ideas, there were days that I would find myself in that low pit of negative self-sabotage again and struggle to dig myself back out, there were days where I didn’t want to get out bed, there were days where I cried so loud and allowed myself to feel that pain. We’re human. Days like this will happen, it’s all a part of the healing process, it’s all teaching us something, it’s catapulting us toward the life we want to create. It’s all showing us our power.

As the shifts in the season and the moon make themselves apparent, I too cannot help but to embrace those shifts within. To revisit my passions, ideas and goals to make sure I am moving toward a life where I feel most aligned. In this new calendar year, I hope to create bigger and better strides to the higher self I imagine. A higher self that continues to make space to listen to her heart, to create safe spaces where I can fall silent and invite the stillness in. To create a community of like-minded people, to find more creative soul mates and friends. To go on more epic adventures and to build a life full of magic, abundance, love, flexibility, creativity, alignment, empowerment and all of the other beautiful compassionate adjectives that get me excited.

If any of what I have wrote, resonated with you. Please consider joining me side-by-side on the blog, the youtube channel and even Instagram. Also please feel free to send me a message if you so feel called to share anything with me, I would love to connect with you. In fact, I would be honoured. Also, make sure to keep your eyes peeled for coming announcement of exciting endeavours and ideas that I have planned for the new year.

Love you,

– Shan

A Start to Twenty Seventeen

Happy New Year to you ,where ever you are in the world!

I’m a little late to the game but better late than never to celebrate a brand new year amiright? To celebrate this new year, you have probably already noticed but I have relaunched my website, which is now http://www.anishanaabe.com! I was very excited that I was able to claim this domain name and I hope to increase it’s presence in the blogging world. I also updated some of the pages and created a super cool new tab labelled “community” which provides links to amazing resources and grassroots led initiatives and a space for anyone willing to share their story in any form each month. I am looking forward to keeping this site updated with the little shenanigans I get up to and the shenanigans that my community gets up to.

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Anyway, it’s that time of year again, where all of our minds drown in our deep self-reflections and analysis. We reflect on the past year and what it has brought to us in terms of successes, failures and all of the good stuff in between. It’s that time of the year where we start to make lists of goals and dreams and make plans to commit to them. It’s that time of year where we feel the utmost amount of love and gratefulness for those closest to us and for those who have supported us every step of the way during the previous year and hoping to god that they stick around for the next one fast approaching. It’s also that time of year where I make my own annual reflection of the year that has passed and offer some of what I have learned into the deepest depths and corners of the internet in hopes that someone somewhere out in the world can relate to my words or gain something from my insights.

img_0744 img_0733Personally, 2016 has been the most influential and awakening year of my life. My eyes, mind and heart were open and I gained incredible insight into who I am, who I want to become and to the world around me and how that all interconnects and correlates. I am astonished, looking back to where I was this time last year. I was a completely different person. It’s truly amazing how fast one can change and grow and how fast ones perception and mindset can evolve. It’s amazing to witness the amount of people who left your life but also how many new people and new connections can come into your life. It’s amazing how many changes and self-improvement that can happen and ultimately change your life forever.

In 2016, I learned to let go of negative energies that could include people, thoughts, activities or routine. I learned that once you do that, it could open your world to so much more. I’ve met so many amazing people and have created closer and more meaningful connections to people who taught me so much. What I thought was impossible happened and actually proved to me that it was possible. I learned about the importance of breaking down barriers and walls, even if they are your own. I’ve learned more about the beautiful community that I’m situated in and the Indigeniety and resistance that remains strong despite such a vast dark history in our country and the ongoing colonial systemic processes that continue to oppress and challenge our people. There is so much work to be done and I only hope that the work I continue to do makes even the slightest change in our community.

Speaking of hope, this is something I really want to focus on in the year of 2017. I have hopes to take what I have learned and implement it daily in the work that I do in our community and in my mindset through completing my education and pursuing my dreams. I hope to stay inspired, motivated and passionate about all of the little things that I commit to and then in turn inspiring, motivating and impassioning others who dare to witness.

Through this I have learned that it’s important to look after yourself, to take the time to heal and listen to your heart, mind and spirit and to follow your intuitions. I hope to continue to travel, express myself creatively, share my story and share the stories of my community to the world. I hope to continue my path of awakening, self-discovery, self-love, understanding and to flourish in a colonial world that tends to put immense pressure and limits to our capacities. I will also end this blog entry with the hope that you – the person reading this right now – understands the jibber jabber that I have just typed out onto my screen and that it somehow engaged you and implanted a lasting impression, so much so that you’ll come back and immerse yourself into my future words that are yet to be extracted from my brain and heart and formed into sentences and blog posts or other forms of creative media for you to see, share and discuss. Therefor I believe that it’s a perfect time to do a little self-promo plug, please subscribe to this blog to be notified when my next gallivant of thought is posted. I would greatly appreciate it. Also feel free to share it with your circles and consider sending me your story to be featured in the community tab of this site.

The photos provided in this post are personal photographs depicting how I rang in 2017, I have also provided a youtube video that captures those memories, please feel free to watch if you’d like to. ❤

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Ekosi – kinanâskomitin for taking the time to read.

Farewell for now.

~ Shan

H A P P Y 2 0 1 5

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I understand that I am a little late to the game of wishing everyone a happy new year but it is better late than never! Right?

I hope that all of you had a great 2014 and wishing that you all to have an even greater 2015! As for myself, during times of transition, I tend to get in major reflective mode (as does everyone I assume). I learned so much and feel as though I grew a great deal over the past year which came with its ups and downs.

At the beginning of each new year I despise creating “resolutions” for myself because in the past I’ve known to never stick to them so instead I like to set goals (probably the same thing) Things I feel I could do realistically and projects that I’d love to get a start on. I usually try to also take these in baby steps and creating monthly or weekly goals instead of for the whole year – if that makes sense. I’ll share some below for you and I would also like to hear your goals for the year, or maybe even the month or just for today. I’m sure it would inspire both myself and others.

Other than that this will be a short entry but get ready for some more frequent killer posts . . . over selling it? maybe a little but I’m excited to start dedicating some more time to this little blog and see where it grows.

Goals/Projects 4 The Year:

– Continue to dedicate more time & effort into this site & its content

– Dedicate more time & effort into hoop dancing, lots of exciting opportunities for this year already

– Do more of what makes me happy (e.g, filming, singing, travelling, meeting new people, etc.)

– Travel, Travel, Travel! 

– Learn to not worry what others think & try to stop comparing myself to others

– Move out on my own

– Start the process toward publishing my own book

– Find balance 

– Keep healthy in all aspects of my life 

– Spend more time with friends, family & meet new people

– Learn to love myself 

– Tackle some of the items on my bucket list (e.g, learn to tap dance, skydive, para glide, etc.) 

– Continue to not bite my nails (Yes I was a nail biter for most of my life) 

There are probably many others but that is all that I can think of at the moment, I’m sure throughout the year many more will be added to this list as well. Many of them are also very vague so I apologize for that. I’m just excited to tackle everything and to experience everything headed my way with exciting opportunities and wonderful ambitions that have been flooding into my mind over the past year. Thanks for reading, you are all wonderful. Leave a comment?